Impressed

These days seem to be more filled than other days, and by other days I mean, in recent prior days. I am working on an Ep 5 songs, that tell a story, loosely based on experiences that I have had. I have to believe that the experiences that I have had were not just for my learning experience but so that I could reach out to others who need help. When I went through a lot of dark times in my life that are displayed on the album, I felt like I didn't have anyone, it's so much hard to go through life altering experiences alone, or feeling like you're alone. Some people may think I have issues, or they may think I am crazy, but I'd like to think that I am experienced. Now usually, when people say that, they are talking about something a little bit more taboo than just "hard times," At any rate, i'm talking about hard times, and tough decisions. I'm happy to have had them. Sometimes the beauty in art, are the cracks and bumps from where it's been, and when it ends up in some museum for a bagazillion dollars you will know that it's worth every dime.

ART

Prince Zuko

So.... once upon a time there was a movie that came out, called "Avatar: The Last Airbender" and in that same time, there was a boy named Kenny. You wonder how these two so distant from each other, subjects parallel? I will tell you. In a time before then, there was a boy named Chris and a girl named Kristina, they watched all three books of Avatar, and the girl Lex, laughed and wondered why they would want to watch this cartoon. Perishing the though, when Chris purpose, that she should watch with them, she simply went up stairs. Back into this once upon a time, that said Lex went to see the movie, of TLA, and was sorely perplexed. Is this how the cartoon is? I have seem a few pieces of episodes, I thought it was more humor filled than this? This seems dark and and uninteresting, I was sure right to stay away from it. Just then Chris, exclaimed his dislike for the movie, explaining that it did not tell the story of Avatar the series, in exactness, not even in partial reiteration, with that said, Kenny also felt the same, I wondered if, maybe I had missed something, if the story of a boy named aang was actually one I should be interested in. And so I asked, Kenny to watch the series with me, he liked it so, if nothing else I could just have fun with him. It's always nice to share things with your friends and you never know you might gain a new hobby by doing so. We watched a few episodes, and Chris told me the entire story, and I wanted to wait for Kenny to finish the series but, I was intrigued, so one day, while Kenny was at work or recording or something, I forget, I just popped in the next cd and within two episodes I was hooked, Kenny who? I totally had to watch this show, Sleep deprived and hungry, I couldn't stop watching. Well into the second book, I had developed a favorite character, I thought I would love aang, or sakka but no my forever true love, (I mean of anime) everyone know my real life true love is Joseph Gordon-Levitt haha, neway I simply fell fell fell in love with Prince Zuko, his confusion, his scar, his heart of gold, that seemed to be covered in such dirt, and mud, and rock, and all things that shielded it from actually feeling, he was so blind, to what he was supposed to do. It reminded me of me before the Gospel entered my heart. But he also reminded me of a great love, his uncle, displayed so much charity and love, and treated Zuko as we should treat those who are lost, because Zuko was lost, and confused and not necessarily looking for the easy way out, but he was looking for the the wrong way to achieve his goal. He got his greatest dream, which was being the fire Lord, but it got it the right way. It reminds me of my music, For so long I was looking to bring back the avatar, and restore my honor, an honor, that was not at all honorable, the things we had to go through, the hurt the torment, the darkness, the wrestling with one self, the learning and excepting that you must put off the natural man daily and a fight is always, against the soul. I suppose in a weird way, I wish I were Mai, she had issues too, but some kind of way they both really did love each other, and they filled up those voids that choice and life hollowed out. It's crazy how a story can tell so many tales. I write what i am inspired to write, hopefully my stories, and songs, and poems will reach those who need them most. If my voice could lull but one souls fears, or comfort a heart in pain, then I have brought to pass the will of God, it seems so simple to follow the promptings from our Father, but sometimes you get scared, and just as Prince Zuko, at the point of honor, you may be afraid or want worldly things over those things that have been promised you, and you chose a path of destruction I remember, how tormented I was, when I strayed, when I chose those worldly things, nothing in the eyes of those are with the Gospel but, something great to me, knowing what I am expected to do, understanding that there is another way and walking away from it to fulfill the heart of man, sleepless nights, and fear consuming you, and dreams, nightmares running though your head, inciting you to come chose the right, it would have been easier and taken less time if Either of us would have chosen the right when called on, but you know man, just as judah it seems we don't get it unless we are stuck in the belly of a fish haha, but I tell you what after that we get it done. I am happy, I know this may seem a bit much for just a cartoon, to get so much out of one character but, it is what it is, and hopefully I can inspire as much as I have been inspired.

I'm a singer, and a dancer...but a writer at heart!

Man this week has been pretty good, I finally got to have practice with the band, which is basically just some musicians coming together to help each other out. Practice was hot, and I mean scorching, meaning that we were sweating because of the temperature in the room, but it was great too, it probably would have been better if we would have been in a cool atmosphere but none the less it was awesome. I mostly did covers because you know, its fun, we have a show on the 28th of August so i'm excited. I only have 4 songs that are originals on this set but, i think it's gonna be ok, did I mention how much I love my temporary bassist haha, he so awesome. And the guitarist is absolutely one of the best, bar none! the drummer is quietly mysterious, but packs a punch on the percussion. I think it's a nice little team. I remember, wanting this forever, Heavenly Father helps dream be realized.I'm so happy that He is in my life, actually all our lives, a whole bunch of Jesus loving, worship song singing, praying to the All Mighty musicians, creating good music, it's like the best of both worlds, spiritual and temporal. This is just the begining i'm sure all of us will have our dreams realize our destinies and our true callings and full measure of purpose, I'm so happy to learn the lessons and have the experiences that lead to exaltation and help bring to pass the will of God. It is always nice to know that, your true calling no matter how it may twist or spin is to pass the will of God.

Girls Camp

So i'm like a billion and 7 and this is the first year I've ever been to girls camp. On last Sunday when Jana was like i'm gonna be a nurse at girls camp... I was like "I want to go" and my mind was like "I do?" Im like where did that come from, I hate outdoors and stuff, even Kenny or Kristina was like u know girls camp is camping? lol right? And then there was the ever daunting fight between rather I should go or not go, because I had so much stuff to do. It seems easy to say oh I can't go because, I have homework, or I need to clean the house, or I have other stuff I need to take care of, all are amiable things to feel as if you don't need to go on a really sweaty vacation but also excuses to escape the hotness and roughing of the week to come. That morning I had decided that I wasn't going. Then my roomate came in the room as I was trying to drift back into sleep and said she would do all my chores and take care of whatever needed to be taken care of but she thinks i need to go. Then I asked Jana if I should still go to girls camp, she also said it would be an experience that I wouldn't regret...man so i had to go. I went! And it was hot, and gross, and I was smelly and tired and couldn't sleep, and I had to walk everywhere enduring the blistering sun, and the wildlife that seem to prey on anything with human flesh...but I HAD A BLAST! t was so awesome, the girls were so amazing. All that trivial stuff didn't even matter...I was so like I can't wait to go home...but i'm not missing one moment! I had so much fun with Jana! I love her. The leaders are super awesome, I feel so blessed to have been able to be in the presence of all those young women with such wonderful testimonies and great talents and huge imagination. I know that I was supposed to go, for more than just one reason, Thanks Heavenly Father for loving us all and giving us experiences that shape who You want us to be. And thank You for the spirt, that helps us and guides us to our destinies!